Life is topsy-turvy right now. It’s certainly not ideal. It’s not the way I imagined. But I’m trying to find solace in the small wins.

This is something that I think is essential to keeping the spirits high when all seems oh so low.

Since Gorge Waterfalls 50K, I’ve been having one issue after another and haven’t put together a string of successful running days whatsoever. Normally, running serves as a great escape. So it hasn’t helped that everyday feels like an uphill battle.

The small wins? I’ve done a ton of uphill battling (hiking). My next three 50K’s are all going to incorporate a ton of uphill hiking. Had I stayed injury free since my race, it’s very likely I would have focused most of my efforts on running, and done little to no hiking.

Since I came back from that 50K in Oregon, I’ve also been losing much of what I value most in my life. I’m about to lose my job. I’m about to lose a key relationship. At the very least, I can be happy that my three favourite parts of my job are still in-tact for the remaining two months. I can be happy that I still have my best friends and favourite people in my life for the time being.

As I wrote about yesterday, the sad truth is that much of those elements to my life would have evolved one way or another. It’s been fast-tracked and accelerated. But maybe that’s all for a greater purpose of discovering my self in new ways, in a new place.

My life very much feels up in the air right now. But I can’t spend all of my time and attention focusing on the big losses. Instead, I have to take the small wins where I can. I have to celebrate what I have, knowing that all the alternatives could be far worse. Soon enough I’m sure that life will be back to normal, and I’ll be celebrating the big wins alongside the small ones once more.